Update on Writing

jacqueline | Sept. 27, 2022, 8:17 p.m. The Ramble

Ok, 

This one is not a poem. This is a real update on writing. Wow. It's hard, haha. One of the struggles I'm running into is consistency, inspiration, and motivation meeting. 

When I get in the habit of sitting down and writing, I struggle with the structure of the story. I am almost leaning towards turning my book into a multitude of short stories. I really enjoy expressing myself in shorter tidbits, the blog has helped open me up creatively and I really appreciate that. 

I did get caught up in the studying aspect of being a writer. I stopped writing all together because I was so focused on being a good writer...that I just stopped writing haha. Well, I did read more, I saw how other people went about writing their books. 

I studied story structure. Which is quite interesting, and I could probably go to college for four years to learn it better. At one point I lost myself and my style, which I'm still working on developing, but currently I've found that the more I read and the more I study, the more my style wants to change and morph. It's honestly hard to find a solid consistency.

I think it has a lot to do with my personality. I have crazy ADHD and it's super hard to well...first off...sit down haha then it's controlling the one million and one ideas and directions I'd like to take. I wrote a story, then expanded on the story, then read one book and didn't like what I wrote. No, I didn't delete it, but I wouldn't call it book worthy. 

I've edited it so much, that it doesn't even make sense anymore. It's funny though. Turns out, writing is hard, but when I get into a flow, I don't like to follow structure anymore, I get really into the speed of my thoughts and just let it flow. I have music playing in the background, and then I type to the beat, let my thoughts run with the rift. 

That's why I've turned to poetry. I feel like a little rapper. Bouncing words off each other is pretty fun. So that's the update so far, I'll do more poetry, because I really like that, and I'll keep working on my book. Then one day...I'll post it for sale. Maybe you'll buy it, not because you like me, but because hopefully by then, you'll like my writing. 

I'm excited. 

I'm excited to be better at this. I found out, this is such a passion, I could get lost in just writing out my thoughts, but I don't want to ramble off to you like my previous posts. I'm trying to work on short and sweet and to the point. 

So, I'll keep at it, I'd like to also say, please don't take some of my poetry personally if it seems offensive, just look at it as art, self-expression, something like that, and we can keep it moving.  

As always, Thank you for reading.