Switching things up? Maybe?

jacqueline | Oct. 8, 2023, 4:14 a.m. Practicing Writing

Ok, 

I have to start fresh. I've been recommended to not delete everything and start over. But I want to. It has nothing to do with liking or not liking something. It's about the fresh feeling of going forward in a direction that doesn't have to carry your past. 

Yet, 

The story and evolution of my writing and thoughts have developed since I started I can feel more mental clarity because I try to write with more intention and purpose. The practice has been beneficial. Also reading. I've been reading almost every day to help progress my writing. It's all a practice. 

It's weird though with A.I. now being this huge thing. This is the issue I'm confronted with about it, or I wouldn't say "issue" more like, it's something that I'm experiencing and feel conflicted. 

I like free writing, I like it because I feel like it helps me express myself as authentically as I can. My writing still needs to be edited to make sure there are pauses where there need to be pauses. Or even spellcheck, but the sentence rearranging just feels like it takes away the way I'd like to say it. 

Plus, 

I like to listen to music while writing because it promotes the best flow. I even feel like I think in more of a rhythmic fashion because of it. So when I get corrected to take out complete sentences, to come off more properly written out and correct, which I appreciate of course. I like that it's trying to take out some unnecessary sentence structure or extra wording. 

But,

I try to read it back sometimes after I allow a sentence or two to be fixed, and it reads well. Yes. ok. But does it flow...hard to know :P 

It's difficult to show you. Without compromising my original intention to be original. <- See, here. I said "Original" Twice. There is a good chance that halfway through this paragraph it will recommend I change the repeated word. Of course, it's my own choice whether I'd like to make the change, and bringing it to my attention is kind of it, so considerate. As someone who likes to write, I have a hard time asking a device to write for me. I've always really appreciated my thoughts on paper. Looking back at some of the things I wrote as a child brings to light the way my mind worked then compared to now. 

So, I guess what I'm saying is, how much is appropriate to allow AI to compromise your written work before it takes every part of "You" basically out of it? So at what point is the chair no longer a chair? At what point is your "work" no longer your work? 

So, then, whose work is it? 

I like going with a single stream of thought. It feels healthy not to ruminate about things and just let the words fall from my fingers to the screen. Spilling from my mind. 

kind of like living in a very present state. I know you could relate, if you tried to sit and stay with yourself and watch your thoughts come and then let them go. Freeing yourself of the burden of carrying so many and just enjoying the show breathing through the tension and relaxing your mind, you start to feel okay, you start to feel fine, fine enough to blow your mind with the stream of consciousness suddenly passing through you, relating to everything because you are everyone just running thoughts between each other energetically speak cautiously because your words can have volatility. 

Hm. 

OK, I like what I did there. I'm going to run it back and paste the revised version after this sentence. So, it will be a repeat, but I'd like to see the difference in writing between my version and the edited version. 

Well, it seems that my flowy state is fully approved and needs no editing. Good news! Debunks my whole original theory. Well not necessarily because I can't pay for the premium package right now. Which is the extended editing version. But sometimes it gives me teasers, so I'll pay for the extra editing features. See but here's where my whole dilemma started. Do I want to pay for even more editing than the basics?

Regardless, it's just the idea that there are so many programs now that I feel take away from the originality of each individual making everyone sound the same. Diversity is what makes this world so colorful and beautiful in every way. Especially with our written words. The ones that come from ourselves and who we are. The ones that paint a picture of the person you live as right now. 

Writing, I feel, allows a person to discover themselves. Exploring deeper than just a sentence or a few words. More like paragraphs that fill chapters in books of galaxies of our personalities. 

Well, 

That's all I have for now. 

As always, 

Thank you for reading.