There I go, stuck in study

jacqueline | Nov. 8, 2022, 3:22 a.m. The Ramble

I've really loved getting back into the study of some good philosophy. One of my favorite topics in college. 

I can only hope you take time to study, my brain feels so charged up. I have been reading every day and I have tried to write most days. I'll be honest, I ran down the rabbit hole of studying, and yes, I have a lot down, but I want to learn more. I want what I have to be valuable. If I write something, I don't want it just to be about the quantity of the words, but the weight of just a few connecting sentences that just click. 

It's not easy for me to do, I get distracted, it takes all switches on to get me this far into the process. The smell of the room can't be too pungent. I'm serious. If it smells...I can't think. Oh, well I guess I can't stop thinking, about what in the world is that smell. I'm sure some of you will relate. 

I've found that the setting and environment have so much impact on what and how I write. I've realized that the story at times takes its form based on the weather. If it's a gloomy dark day, maybe that is when most of the conflict scenarios arise in my mind. On a sunny beautiful day, there is so much gratitude and happiness. Something different gets written. I'm impressed and admire writers who can keep a steady rhythm. Over time, I hope to develop that. 

It is interesting viewing my progress. For myself. 

There is definitely a beat to storytelling. I feel like everyone should try it and explore what kind of things they could come up with. It's challenging and gives you something to think about. If you really start to get into it, every little detail will come to you throughout your day. 

The way someone said something might have just built one of your characters. The surroundings of your very home can become a scene. 

Oh! So, there is the moral, I love this. To write a good story would require a good moral, one that explains a deeper meaning. Something that hits home for humanity. It's my favorite part. I'm trying to build on that. Because I feel, that's really the root of it. 

I am very self-critical of course, not in the intention of putting myself down, more making sure I'm doing my best. Even blogging has to become more regular if I'm going to do this right. It's really about the attempt at getting into a habit so writing becomes more fruitful and I'll only improve over time with the more that I am reading, I can feel the story form itself so much more. It's a very beautiful process. I definitely recommend indulging in the study of it first. Allow yourself to learn how the dots connect and where they can come from. Then go swimming. 

 As always, 

Thank you.