Missed a Day

jacqueline | Oct. 20, 2021, 10:42 p.m. The Ramble

I promised myself I would write an hour a day at the least. I want to get into a routine so I habitually write and it no longer feels like I'm finding the time, rather the time finds me. Yesterday was one of those days, feeling sluggish, unmotivated, and doubtful. It was hard, I felt bad. I keep promises to myself and when I brake them, I feel just as bad as I do when I break promises to anyone else. Its shameful, I need to make that time up.

After just these 3/4 days since I've fully committed to this, I'm starting to understand what I need to write this book. I need a timeline, notes, and research. That is, before the story even begins to be written. I've already written just a handful of pages, but now I realize I need more order so the story connects properly and flows. I've been looking up proper notes to help me with my timeline. I'm excited about this process because I realized after the hockey game, I was making great progress, actually being at the game was a nice place to let my mind wonder. But as it did I realized I was connecting some dots and adding a bunch of new context that now I'm confused about incorporating into the already handful of written pages. So now I am taking a step back. 

Today will be about research, plot and character development, and hopefully the start of a good timeline. so...Fingers crossed! I love the freedom I have with this blog though, my little writing journal, I try to journal before I write, it helps, but I might add some thoughts after I write as well. I forgot to do that after the game and missed out some aha moments I could have saved here. I cant even remember what those thoughts were, but man was I fired up after that. So we'll see how I'm feeling after putting some work into this timeline!