Letting the story take form

jacqueline | Nov. 7, 2021, 3:16 a.m. The Ramble

I was really conflicted with the direction I wanted this story to go. I also reached the point of difficulty where giving up sounded pleasant. Of course, no, I'm not doing that, but challenges are coming and they are hitting me right in the face. 

I went to a diner the other day and was pleasantly surprised by the inspiration that came by watching others. 

Before, I didn't want to write a love story, and still don't, but I think it's hard to avoid love and it's involvement in the creation of stories, the ones that hit. I used to think that writing stories meant, you've already thought it out, you have a plan, and the words on paper are the execution. The more I write, the more I am realizing that the story begins to take a life of it's own. Things begin to connect because they just make sense, considering the events that occurred, and how they add up. 

I didn't start writing about a little diner, but I did start to get to know my characters, and in doing that, my story began to unfold. It felt beautiful and intoxicating, as if I wasn't the one writing but really reading and waiting to see what happens next. I don't know if all writers feel this way or experience the same, but it's feeling effortless...so much so, I forgot to blog about it and went straight to writing. I really want to keep tabs on my progress, I know this flow of imagination isn't endless, but I'm interested to see how far it goes. 

I do feel I hit a wall sometimes. As if the serotonin wears off and suddenly I'm tired, that excitement of endlessness reaches its end. Then there is picking it back up, finding the time again, and making this work. It's like a literal rollercoaster ride. Pun intended. 

I do have a timeline, and whole bunch of notes, but all that was, was distracting at some point. I was doing more research than I was writing, and then I was thinking too much into tiny details that I'm sure my characters will incorporate later. Research is good. If my story wasn't fictional, then maybe facts would be more important, but I just want a little facts, to make it relatable. 

So far, it seems my characters are telling me who they want to be and how this is going to go. Sounds crazy, even to me, but I'm kind of a fan of going with the flow.